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Diligently Hearken to His Voice

Today in our Bible reading, we heard the complaints and murmurings of the children of Israel. They didn’t like the struggles of the wilderness and would have given up their freedom and their Promised Land for an easier path.  Truly it is amazing how the Word of God so often a mirror exposing my own heart.

Jesus did the same thing to us through the reading of the New Testament. His stories seem to always become the stories of our lives. 

How many times do we have freedom and we knew  God rescued us, but then things get difficult again? And in difficulty, our hearts are exposed. Things intensify, and it is evident that we too, would trade our gift of  liberty for slavery. We would choose slavery over freedom because slavery might be more comfortable than bondage. It might be easier temporarily, but bondage will kill us in the end.

This is true of the Israelites, but it doesn’t take much time or effort to recognize it also in my own lives.

To live victoriously and free I believe we will have to fight for freedom. The fight is to resist the enemy and learn to trust Him alone. Now, once you are set free things may get harder for a season but even so…nothing can be taken from you. You can give it back to the enemy as the Israelites thought they wanted to do but if you just stand…nothing can be taken. You know WHO you belong to, and you know that He is the Most High God. For eternity, forever,  you will be His child and in fellowship with Him. He is our Promised Land.

But until we know that we know that, we will just keep making circles in the same wilderness, going around and around while God tries to teach us lessons we refuse to learn. Help us, Father!!!

Today’s reading – Exodus 15:19 – 17:7, Matthew 22:1-33, Psalms 27:1-6; Proverbs 6:20-26

If Thou Wilt Diligently Hearken to the Voice of the Lord…

He shall heal me
And said, If thou wilt diligently hearken to the voice of the Lord thy God, and wilt do that which is right in his sight, and wilt give ear to his commandments, and keep all his statutes, I will put none of these diseases upon thee, which I have brought upon the Egyptians: for I am the Lord that healeth thee.
– Exodus 15:26

And the Lord said unto Moses, How long refuse ye to keep my commandments and my laws? – Exodus 16:28

He shall call and choose me
Then saith he to his servants, The wedding is ready, but they which were bidden were not worthy. Go ye therefore into the highways, and as many as ye shall find, bid to the marriage. So those servants went out into the highways, and gathered together all as many as they found, both bad and good: and the wedding was furnished with guests. And when the king came in to see the guests, he saw there a man which had not on a wedding garment: and he saith unto him, Friend, how camest thou in hither not having a wedding garment? And he was speechless. Then said the king to the servants, Bind him hand and foot, and take him away, and cast him into outer darkness; there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth. For many are called, but few are chosen
. – Matthew 22:8-14

He shall hide me
The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.

For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock. – Psalms 27:1, 3, 5

He shall lead, keep, and talk with me
My son, keep thy father’s commandment, and forsake not the law of thy mother: Bind them continually upon thine heart, and tie them about thy neck. When thou goest, it shall lead thee; when thou sleepest, it shall keep thee; and when thou awakest, it shall talk with thee. For the commandment is a lamp, and the law is light, and reproofs of instruction are the way of life:
– Proverbs 6:20-23

Oh, eternal Father, help me I pray to learn the lessons I need to learn in this wilderness. Help me to yield that I can draw ever closer to You and my Promised Land. Help me to diligently hearken to Your voice and to be obedient once I hear. Help me to focus only on You and the abundant gifts you give. Lead and guide me through this day, Holy Spirit. Heal me of my infirmities. Deliver me from the mind battles that try to take me off the path You have chosen for me. Seal this Word and let it grow in my spirit. I ask this all in the Name above all Names. I ask this in Jesus’ Name. Amen.

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God Will Restore – Jeremiah 30:17

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For I will restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy wounds, saith the Lord; because they called thee an Outcast, saying, This is Zion, whom no man seeketh after.” ~ Jeremiah‬ ‭30:17‬‬‬‬

Restore – to bring back into existence, use, or the like; reestablish: to restore order; to bring back to a former, original, or normal condition; to bring back to a state of health, soundness, or vigor; to put back to a former place, or to a former position, rank, etc ; to give back; make restitution of (anything taken away or lost) ; to reproduce or reconstruct in the original state.

Health – the general condition of the body or mind with reference to soundness and vigor.  Soundness of body or mind; freedom from disease or ailment

Heal – to make healthy, whole, or sound; restore to health; free from ailment; to free from evil; cleanse; purify.

Wound – an injury, usually involving division of tissue or rupture of the integument or mucous membrane, due to external violence or some mechanical agency rather than disease; an injury or hurt to feelings, sensibilities, reputation, etc.

I will restore health unto thee, and I will heal thee of thy wounds.” This is what the Lord said to his chosen people, the nation he calls His own. These words are powerful. He said He would free them from disease and heal them of any inflicted injuries. God made this promise to an entire nation. And that the King of Glory, the Creator of Heaven and Earth, is concerned enough with this small nation to promise to restore health to them and heal them of their wounds means the world to me! Why? Because it means our Father in Heaven is also keeping an eye out for each one of us. He cares so much for us that He also promises to heal us.

We know from reading the Bible that these are not empty promises. God fulfills all His promises, every single Word. Over and over He proves His Word is true… and so we can be confident that His Word will come to pass.

So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it. ~ Isaiah 55: 11

Something I read today regarding wounds:

Some wounds take bandages. Some wounds take stitches. Some wounds take surgery to replace new with the old. Just because you didn’t get to choose the way you wanted to heal doesn’t mean you take your bandage off and demand stitches.
Wounds aren’t meant to be reopened. A reopened wound causes more infections…
When you get healed, stay healed. Don’t create your own healing method. God knows how to tend to your wounds. Wounds cannot heal when that healing is sought in the world. It’s impossible. But with God any wound is available for healing.

Lord, I thank You for releasing supernatural strength to me, for restoring my health, delivering me from the bondage of fear, and for healing my wounds. You are so good to me! I love you and honor you, Jesus! Oh, merciful Father, I come before Your throne tonight to ask You to let your healing virtue flow to those that are on my prayer list. Holy Spirit, you know every single name and their affliction and suffering. You know every need. You died so that each one could walk in your healing tonight. Let healing flow through bodies, minds, and spirits tonight…on this earth as it is in heaven…for YOUR GLORY alone!!! I pray this in Jesus Name. Amen! Amen!!!

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Healing and Granny’s Fig Jam: 2 Kings 20:1-7

In those days was Hezekiah sick unto death. And the prophet Isaiah the son of Amoz came to him, and said unto him, Thus saith the Lord, Set thine house in order; for thou shalt die, and not live. Then he turned his face to the wall, and prayed unto the Lord, saying, I beseech thee, O Lord, remember now how I have walked before thee in truth and with a perfect heart, and have done that which is good in thy sight. And Hezekiah wept sore.

And it came to pass, afore Isaiah was gone out into the middle court, that the word of the Lord came to him, saying, Turn again, and tell Hezekiah the captain of my people, Thus saith the Lord, the God of David thy father, I have heard thy prayer, I have seen thy tears: behold, I will heal thee: on the third day thou shalt go up unto the house of the Lord. And I will add unto thy days fifteen years; and I will deliver thee and this city out of the hand of the king of Assyria; and I will defend this city for mine own sake, and for my servant David’s sake.

And Isaiah said, Take a lump of figs. And they took and laid it on the boil, and he recovered.” ~ 2 Kings‬ ‭20:1-7‬ 

2 Kings 20 is such an interesting passage!!!

In this passage of scripture, I see that the Lord healed in answer to prayer. And yet, figs were used by the direction of the prophet of God before there was a complete recovery. Sometimes God uses medicines. Sometimes healing is a process.

I see that God was true to His Word. Specifically, 2 Chronicles 7:14 – IF my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sins, and will heal their land. Hezekiah certainly did humble himself and pray. God did answer.

I see that God said He would heal and then defend and deliver the nation…for His own sake but also for the sake of His servant, David. Isn’t it amazing that God might do something for us for the sake of those around us, that are His servants? Have you ever thought that God might have healed you for the sake of your mother or for the sake of your pastor or for the sake of your spouse? Have you ever thought that God might just heal someone for your sake if you are obedient to Him and His will…as well as for His own sake and for His Glory?!?

Reading the rest of the chapter (and you should), I see that even though there was recovery, Hezekiah wanted a sign to prove it. Aren’t we like that? I like that Hezekiah was bold enough to ask! We have not because we ask not!!!! God did give the sign which was a miracle. The Bible doesn’t explain the miracle so we just have to leave it at that. Praise God for His miracles.

Here are a few things I believe about healing. Some relate to this scripture and some are my beliefs because of the finished work of the Cross and the healing work God has done in me!

  • I believe in divine healing and that God uses our prayers to bring His healing forth.
  • I believe that He heals because He is a merciful and compassionate God and also because healing is His perfect will.
  • I believe that healing was paid for in the atonement just as salvation was.
  • I believe that there are many things we don’t understand and won’t understand…but still healing is God’s perfect will.
  • I believe that God will direct and redirect our paths to pray for people because He wants to heal. Sometimes I listen…sometimes I cower. Forgive me Lord for the times I have ignored your call and let someone that is hurting walk away.
  • I believe we would see so many miracles if we made up our mind to listen and walk in boldness and obedience. Not just in church services though. I am talking about as we walk through our own, everyday world.
  • I believe…I just do!

It is very late, so maybe I will write some more later and then update. All thoughts are welcome. I truly love to hear what others have gleaned from scripture or what the Holy Ghost has revealed to them about scripture, prayer, and healing. God bless.

 

On a personal note: When I was a young teenager we lived beside my grandparents. My Granny and Grandpa Burgess had fig trees in their yard. Every year Granny made the best fig jam. I sure do miss my grandparents and her jam. When I read about figs in the Bible I think on those days and thank God for their influence in my life, but mostly for their presence. Their presence brought healing to me just as that lump of figs for Hezekiah. Thinking on Granny’s figs I know that no matter what I lost in my life, I was blessed beyond measure by those two loving me unconditionally and caring for me. Sometimes the greatest gift of healing anyone can give is just to be there!!!!

 

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Thy Word Have I Hid in My Heart – Be Holy, Be Whole

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Daily Scripture

For I am the Lord that bringeth you up out of the land of Egypt, to be your God: ye shall therefore be holy, for I am holy.” ~ Leviticus‬ ‭11:45‬

And a certain woman, which had an issue of blood twelve years, And had suffered many things of many physicians, and had spent all that she had, and was nothing bettered, but rather grew worse, When she had heard of Jesus, came in the press behind, and touched his garment. For she said, If I may touch but his clothes, I shall be whole. And straightway the fountain of her blood was dried up; and she felt in her body that she was healed of that plague. And Jesus, immediately knowing in himself that virtue had gone out of him, turned him about in the press, and said, Who touched my clothes? And his disciples said unto him, Thou seest the multitude thronging thee, and sayest thou, Who touched me? And he looked round about to see her that had done this thing. But the woman fearing and trembling, knowing what was done in her, came and fell down before him, and told him all the truth. And he said unto her, Daughter, thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace, and be whole of thy plague.” ~ Mark‬ ‭5:25-34‬

Study

Holy – specially recognized as or declared sacred; dedicated or devoted to the service of God; having a spiritually pure quality

Whole – containing all the elements properly belonging; undivided; in one piece; not broken, damaged, or impaired; intact; nothing broken and nothing missing.

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In the One Year Bible today we were in Leviticus 11 and Mark 5. Here are some things about these passages that spoke to me as I read, studied, and meditated on the Word. I love it anytime when I can see correlations and passages tied together.

Holiness is the key theme of Leviticus. The word “holy” appears more often in Leviticus than in any other book of the Bible. Israel was to be holy or totally consecrated to God. Holiness was to be expressed in every aspect of life, making what was to be lives of purity. Because of who God is and what he has done, his people were to dedicate themselves fully to him. Isn’t that the same He requires of us?

Peter quoted Leviticus in 1 Peter 1:13-16 – “Wherefore gird up the loins of your mind, be sober, and hope to the end for the grace that is to be brought unto you at the revelation of Jesus Christ; As obedient children, not fashioning yourselves according to the former lusts in your ignorance: But as he which hath called you is holy, so be ye holy in all manner of conversation; Because it is written, Be ye holy; for I am holy.”

In the passage from Mark, we have a woman who had a blood issue for 12 years. She had been to doctors and used all she had seeking a solution. No one had been able to help and her issue was destroying her. By the very laws that were given in Leviticus she would have been considered unclean. She would have been restricted from both religious or social life. Could her identity as “unclean” be why she touched but the hem of His garment? I have read that the hem of a Rabbi’s garment was also called wings. It reminds me of Malachi 4:2a ~ But unto you that fear my name shall the Sun of righteousness arise with healing in his wings. The woman with the issue of blood had heard of Jesus and reports of others being healed and she went to Him. Once there she touched the hem of Jesus garment and she was not disappointed. She was healed, made whole, and clean.

Meditation

In Leviticus, we learn that uncleanness spreads like germs. When someone or something touches anything unclean, it becomes unclean.

In Mark, we learn that cleanness and holiness also spreads. Jesus is clean, and whatever He touches or whoever touches Him becomes clean…or as our passage says, “whole!”

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I like the following song, “Holy is the Lord.”  It holds a special place in my heart because our mission team sang this song during the church conferences we held in Romania.

Prayer

Oh Father, thank you so much for Your Word that is a lamp and a light to me. Help me to listen and obey to keep my life and heart set apart and holy. Help me to stay close enough to hold to the hem of Your garment, Lord that I may live healed and whole. Nothing missing, nothing broken. Help me to be holy as You are holy. May I never settle for less. And when I fall short help me heed correction and warnings and to look to You and Your Word always for my direction. Thank You that through Jesus and His shed blood I can stand before You now, Father. Help me to always, always remember the price paid for me to be made clean. In Jesus Name. Amen.

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My 9/11 Testimony

We all remember so many details and images of 9/11/01.

As I drove up the Colonial Parkway toward home that day, I wondered how it would forevermore feel to be one with a birthday on 9/11. How would those born on this day celebrate life in the midst of such death? God knows every thought or maybe He planted that thought in my mind, knowing I would revisit it many times in the coming years.

On 9/11/2006 at around 10:15am, the 5th anniversary of this Patriot Day, with the roll call of those that died playing in the distance, the supernatural power of God met the natural in my life. I found myself that morning alone. We had since moved from Virginia to NC and I was battling severe depression. This was not new, it had been going on for years but on this day I was tired of fighting each and every day to stay alive. Satan had me in a stronghold and I was almost convinced of my unworth. Almost, because for reasons that even I do not know, I said a desperate and heart felt prayer to Jesus, “HELP!”

And then….as in the days of the Apostle Paul, I encountered the Living God.

His magnificent and radiant Glory filled my office. His presence filled every crevice of that room including every part of me…I felt both incredible peace and holy fear. I fell onto the floor and for what seemed hours, I lay prostrate there under the weight of His Glory. I was as one of the dead in my physcial body though more alive than ever before within. On that day, the Almighty God allowed me to see just a glimpse of Himself, He held me in His arms and allowed me to see the “Missy” that He created me to be and showed me how satan had worked to destroy me even as he had destroyed my own dad. My Father spoke to me words that will forever be engraved in my heart, Words no one can ever take away or dismiss. Heavenly words! I spoke to Him words that I will forever live by. On that day, He healed me, delivered me and changed this life for all eternity. On that day, I repented of my sins, forgave all who I had been so unwilling to forgive and then He forgave me and I accepted His salvation through His Son, Jesus Christ.  On that day, I made Him Lord and King. After years of hiding the truth about myself and pretending to be saved because I had walked the aisle one time as a child, I was truly born again. Washed as white as snow. That was the greatest of miracles in my life.

My Father then baptized me with His Holy Spirit and I began to speak a language I didn’t know! A heavenly language that until that very moment I had never believed in. He promised to restore my life and that of my family. His promises are always true! It was a suddenly, parting of the red sea experience. I was changed in every way…physically, emotionally and spiritually. I came away with a burning love for Him and His Word and the desire to please Him in all I do.

So today is my real, true birthday. There will probably be no cake, no presents…I know no way to celebrate than this – to remain filled with a heart of gratitude and devotion and indescribable love for my Savior and those He created. To do His will as best as I can. To never forget…remind myself daily of Jesus’ sacrifice and His love for me that brought me out of the place of impending death and into this eternal life. Think about it…at a time when the pain and grief of an entire country was so much in the world’s focus…My Shepherd “left the ninety-nine” to come and rescue this sinner. The beautiful Lamb of God carried this lamb home…what a special gift to me! Thank you so much Jesus!!!!

And herein lies another truth….If He did all of this for me, He can and will do it for you too. He will reveal Himself to you. He will meet you or come after you. He will draw you to Himself or draw you closer. If you feel you are in a place that you can do nothing else, just say the only prayer I did….”HELP!”

I pray for the peace and love I feel to comfort you all and most especially those that are still in so much grief on this 9/11. I pray today that you know my Jesus!

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The following is on my wall of this office right in front of where I sit. I will never forget 9/11:

Lord, I give myself to You;

I give my life to You.

I want to be your servant.   

I feel Your call;

I believe I was sent and saved

To do the will of my Father.

I will take orders from You.

I will submit to You.

I will let You break my will.

I will not seek for comfort

or high positions,

Nor to do what I want to do.

Mine is the humblest task,

Or the most dangerous task;

By the grace of God, I will do it.

I will go where You want me to go;

I will do what You give me to do.

If in this walk I seem to have nothing,

I will not complain.

At times when I find myself in a kind of prison, 

I will rejoice and I will praise You

Because You have been to prison for me.

I love You, Jesus;

I thank You for calling me,

And that You want me,

And that You can use me;

I thank You that You are there to guide every step

As I do my part to ready

Your Bride for Your return. 

And I say today with my whole heart, 

“Send the Fire

And burn up the sacrifice.

Fill me again and again with Thy Holy Spirit

And give me a double portion of Thine anointing.”

 

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Encouragement for Today

As I entered into the 38th day of my personal fast and the first day of our corporate fast I did so with a prayer that God reveal Himself to me in greater ways. I want to hear His voice all the time. I want to be so close to Him that I can hear His heartbeat and He can hear mine. I want something even closer. I want to have the same heart. It says in the Word to write down the vision. So for this last part of my fast I write down these things that are my goals and prayers.

– I want healing in my emotions. They are all over the place and my feelings are getting hurt way too easily. I pray that I can focus instead of on me onto God so negative emotions have far, far less power. I want to flow in love, forgiveness, grace.

– I pray for miracles and healing for my church family, both individually and corporately. I pray for unity and ask the Lord to begin that in me. Convict we when I breed disunity in any way. I ask for healing in finances, health, relationships.

– I ask for salvations.

– I ask for open doors and new opportunities to love. I pray that God works out what is on my heart regarding ministry opportunities. I just want to love people.

This verse came as such an encouragement to me this morning:

Psalm 27:13 “I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness (same Hebrew word for “glory”) of the LORD In the land of the living.” NKJV

Also I received this good Word today via email:

SMALL STRAWS IN A SOFT WIND by Marsha Burns — 2/7/11:

Be filled again with My Spirit. The days ahead will be filled with My Glory in the practical and commonplace things of life. Maintain awareness, and see My manifest presence in unexpected ways, says the Lord. Take nothing for granted. My glory is all around you!
Psalms 125:2 As the mountains surround Jerusalem, so the LORD surrounds His people from this time forth and forever.

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Surprise Party

and five hours later when the weight of the glory of God lifted….

One thing I have known well, too well…and that is that lie of the devil named rejection.

I started believing the lie of rejection when I was quite young and over the years I have fought it, hated it, used it and partnered with it…but I have never been able to get rid of it. I grew up with an absent dad. My dad was always traveling while in the Navy and then after he was discharged he became lost in his own world of ministry and school. When my dad was around, he often went through periods of such depression that he would close himself off for weeks at a time. I had a dad that tried very hard but wasn’t able to persevere and killed himself a few weeks after Christmas in 1975…at the time I was fourteen.

So for many years even before fourteen I lived with this spirit of rejection and resulting father issues and depression that came. Yesterday, as my birthday approaches (and my birthday is also my dad’s birthday just so you understand) I started feeling myself cave to such feelings of depression that I didn’t know what was going on. It was a feeling I haven’t felt in quite some time and I felt almost guilty for feeling it…like I was chosing this as I had until recently even accused my dad of chosing. I don’t mess around though with depression. I need help but from who? I went to the only one I know for sure I can trust with this. Someone that would understand and care enough about the roots of my rejection to pray even if they couldn’t understand what I was feeling. I went to Jesus.

I believe with all my heart that God sent me to the IHOPU student awakening last night. I had other things planned but I just couldn’t do them…so I got online and decided to check it out.

So five hours later when the weight of the glory of God lifted….

Not even an hour into the service, this girl got up and was getting ready to pray for people that had that spirit of rejection and Allen Hood (gotta love him) grabbed the microphone and said there are pastors kids and they really have this rejection on them and they need to be delivered tonight. They are here and on the webcast. I knew that he as talking about me….It was like the Holy Spirit took control of me and I started crying uncontrollably and continued as this girl, a pastor’s kid who had been delivered the week before, prayed for ME. And as she prayed and continued praying, I felt the release. It was that divine exchange you hear about. One weight exchanged for another….yes, there was this weight and I knew it was the GLORY- the very presence of God… No big bells or whistles. No falling down or shaking or dancing (well until later and then there was singing and dancing and praising like I haven’t done in a longgggg time : ). There was just the weight…glorious weight of God. I couldn’t move, I didn’t want to. And all that time I was feeling the release. This girl prayed for those that need the love of the Father to fill holes that my father couldn’t and didn’t fill. I believe with all my heart that those holes aren’t there this morning. That this weight took out a lot of things and put in some others. I can’t exactly explain it. Would anyone even believe it anyway?

I just feel different….Rejection is something I knew too well but rejection is a LIE of the devil and I declare this morning that I know nothing of these lies. Still under the weight, I felt God tell me to destroy those clippings and although it took effort to release those lies…I tore them up and flushed them and then I started declaring some things…and still, I declare that I know in every fiber of my being the Father’s love this morning….like Job 22:28

“You will also declare a thing, And it will be established for you; So light will shine on your ways. …”

I declare it today – NO REJECTION ON ME THIS MORNING only the LOVE OF MY FATHER. For my birthday God gave me one of the desires of my heart. To be free from this spirit of rejection, to be free from trying to please others to get their approval, to be free from trying to get people to like me, to be free from resulting jealousies and anger, to be free from resulting depression rooted in the guilt of my dad’s choices, to be free from ruminations and wondering if everything I said or did hurt anyone in any way every time I speak or write or whatever, to be free from perfectionism and performing, just to be FREE.

I shared my birthday with my dad and we never really had parties…we just exchanged cards and had a cake. For years after my dad died no one really wanted to celebrate such a day. I always understood because I didn’t ever really want to celebrate it either. So I have always just done things that were very low key. A dinner maybe. I have never really even had or wanted a birthday party…but last night God threw me a PARTY. A surprise party.

Five hours later when the weight of the glory of God lifted there was singing and dancing and God gave me such a gift- one of the desires of my heart – and He gave it two days early. He knew, because He knows me, that I couldn’t wait another minute…..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!! THANK YOU GOD FOR SUCH A GIFT : )

Hallelujah and ALL THE GLORY TO GOD!!!!

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picking and choosing

part of what I have been mulling over and blogging about today…

…In Mark 16:17-18 besides tongues, it also speaks of believers casting out demons and healing the sick (yeah I know, it talks about snakes and poison too : ) Says that they WILL cast out demons and they WILL heal the sick. These were the words of Jesus right before He was taken up to heaven. That alone makes me want to really get them into my heart. So it makes me wonder why I (and can only speak for myself here) having such great confidence in the gift of tongues have not started walking with that same measure of faith regarding healing and deliverance? There I go picking and choosing again…