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3 am Wake Up Call

It’s 4:30 am and I have been up since 3 am. Have to be up at 5 am anyway. I am up fighting a battle in the spirit. I am warring against things that I knew were real but never encountered much before. Never been sadder or angrier or more tired or felt so intensely. Voices say give up, run away, hide….but what good would any of that do? So I stand and fight. If you see me cry or hear me or feel my distance it is not because I want you to join me here. No need unless the Lord bids you come. Sometimes these just flow out.

There is a type of evil that looks like an enormous snake, feels like a crushing weight, and enters your life in a very unassuming way. We hear it spoken of by some but don’t take it serious enough until it is in front of us or on us. When it gets a place in you it betrays and starts squeezing the LIFE out of you. It feels like discouragement to me in the natural today but it is an enemy trying to get me to let go and this enemy is slowly going through all the tactics. Discouragement, offense, pride, envy….the list goes on and on. And believe me I have wanted to run away but as the enemy shows me death, the Holy Ghost shows Truth. I KNOW the costs and what is at stake. So I fight for the death of this enemy in my life and others.

I can see that this enemy is going through the body of Christ and taking people down one by one. It is not the people but the enemy. Never the person …but there are people he is using. Not because they want him to use them but because he is squeezing them too. Giving in is gradual so some don’t even know it themselves.

Believe me, I have been fighting the devil tonight. I come with the Word Himself and with authority and with the Name of Jesus and the Blood as I have been taught. I have no choice, not really. The time for choice for me is passed as it regards this battle. Victory already came but will only manifest on earth as it is in heaven if I take my position and don’t abandon it. Otherwise, I keep going around in a horrible vicious circle.

If this isn’t for you move on for now….but if you are or ever find yourself where I do tonight you need to know this is real, it is serious but there are others fighting alongside you. It feels lonely in the natural but there are others and there is Jesus!

Last night I asked a minister for prayer and he prayed. He said several things but at t, e end he said three to four times…Remember the fast! Remember the fast! Remember the fast!

“Howbeit this kind goeth not out but by prayer and fasting” ~ Matthew 17:21

That might just be one of the most important verses in the Bible today. God bless you each and every one! 3 am wake up calls….

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Why Pray?

“… for your Father knoweth what things ye have need of, before ye ask him..” ~ Matthew 6:8b 

God doesn’t need our suggestions. But we are eager to make them to Him! I’m guilty of making my prayer life all about figuring out my situations and then asking God to bless my plans. “Lord, bless this. Just bless all that I’ve arranged. And give me all I’ve suggested.” But can I admit to you what I have had to admit to God a lot over the years? My plans are never, ever the best plans.

Like today’s verse states, God already knows what we need before we ask Him. Not what we think we need. He knows what we really need according to His perfect plans.

So, why pray then?

Because prayer is God’s appointed way to have our needs met.

Because we don’t truly know what we need. We pray because He sees everything while we see only a little of the bigger picture. We pray because we have limited perspectives, limited thoughts, limited views. We pray because we need so much more than quick fixes and help for our troubles.  

Because we need Him.

Because we need what He gives us through prayer.

Here are some things God can give us through prayer:

• He will give revelations and a powerful sense of peace we can not get any other way. If we will hush the voices and stop hurry of our lives, and humble our hearts in prayer before the Lord,

• He can not only hush the worries, but ONLY HE can empty the world’s worries from our minds and hearts.

Nothing on earth has any authority over God. His will is accomplished even when it doesn’t look that way from our point of view. And best of all He is operating from victory not working for victory.

“After this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name. 10 Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven. ” Matthew 6:9-10

“Thy will be done.” His will is going to be done so with Him; there is no need for us to worry. Because of Him, we have every reason to worship!

• He will fill us with His perfect provision for this day.

“Give us this day our daily bread” ~ Matthew 6:11

God knows what we need and will give us today’s portion of meeting that need. It may not look like what we want, but it will be what He knows we need and in the exact portion we can handle.

• He will purify us so that what we spill over onto others through our words and actions is life giving.

A heart tainted by sin, tempted to be too prideful to forgive, or tortured by temptation will not thrive or be the blessing to others we’re called to be. So, Jesus teaches us how to stay free of the deceiver’s grip.

“and forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.13 And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil” ~ Matthew 6:12-13

As I read this I realize He doesn’t need our lists of desires; he wants our willing humility. 

I also realize that there are no singular pronouns in this prayer. They are all plural. It begins with “Our Father.” When we pray, we must remember that we are part of God’s worldwide family of believers. We have no right to ask for ourselves anything that would harm another member of the family. If we are praying in the will of God, the answer will be a blessing to all of God’s people in one way or another. We may not understand it now, but one day we will.

So in humility, we lift up His name, we receive His provision, we listen for His direction, we accept His correction, we walk in protection in Him that prayer can give and we can declare to ALL the world.

“For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen.” ~ Matt 6:13b

God bless you today!

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Change Me, Lord!

The devil comes to steal, kill and destroy and I am tired of it. I have a situation where the enemy has been using someone for years to try to drive a wedge in a relationship. It is a constant battle. I recognized the spirit and have taken authority as instructed by Jesus and the Word of God!
But here is reality – I can pray, and I can take authority and rightly so but – God gives all people free will. So what can I do then? Oh, I won’t stop praying…no way will I stop…but now my prayers include the request for the good Lord to CHANGE ME!!!! Change me, Lord…In Jesus Name! Amen!
And saying that prayer is my free will. So move over, satan and get out of my life!!!
The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. ~ John 10:10
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Lead Me In the Way Everlasting (Pt. 2)

Psalm 139:24 – And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

Offense will stop the flow of the miraculous in your life. We are offended about so many things and often offended at God. This is a story from the Bible about that.

Matthew 20:1-16 –
For the kingdom of heaven is like unto a man that is an householder, which went out early in the morning to hire labourers into his vineyard. 2 And when he had agreed with the labourers for a penny a day, he sent them into his vineyard.
3 And he went out about the third hour, and saw others standing idle in the marketplace,
4 And said unto them; Go ye also into the vineyard, and whatsoever is right I will give you. And they went their way.
5 Again he went out about the sixth and ninth hour, and did likewise.
6 And about the eleventh hour he went out, and found others standing idle, and saith unto them, Why stand ye here all the day idle?
7 They say unto him, Because no man hath hired us. He saith unto them, Go ye also into the vineyard; and whatsoever is right, that shall ye receive.
8 So when even was come, the lord of the vineyard saith unto his steward, Call the labourers, and give them their hire, beginning from the last unto the first.
9 And when they came that were hired about the eleventh hour, they received every man a penny.
10 But when the first came, they supposed that they should have received more; and they likewise received every man a penny.
11 And when they had received it, they murmured against the goodman of the house, 12 Saying, These last have wrought but one hour, and thou hast made them equal unto us, which have borne the burden and heat of the day.
13 But he answered one of them, and said, Friend, I do thee no wrong: didst not thou agree with me for a penny?
14 Take that thine is, and go thy way: I will give unto this last, even as unto thee.
15 Is it not lawful for me to do what I will with mine own? Is thine eye evil, because I am good?
16 So the last shall be first, and the first last: for many be called, but few chosen.

Ouch! Any offense is ugly but directed at God?! I think He would say to me(us), Just keep your hand to the plow! Hear and obey! Recognize your season and live it out! Stop being so concerned with what I instruct someone else to do. Kill criticism and jealousy in you. Keep praise in your heart and mouth! Stay in your assignment! I am a just God!”

 Help me oh Lord to continue to root out the offense and all the nasty spirits that attach themselves to it – bitterness, jealousy, competition, rejection, etc… Help me to cast them away once and for all. Help me to love Your Word so that I have great peace and live without offense. In Jesus Name! Amen!!!

Psalm 119:165 – Great peace have they which love thy law: and nothing shall offend them.
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A Sock in the Gut

There is a difference between going because you want to go and going because you are needed there. ~ A friend

Well, I have faced just about every emotion I can face over this last week from extreme joy to excruciating loneliness to overwhelming sadness to being just plain mad.

This time last year I was offered the opportunity to go to Tanzania, and I felt led of the Lord to go. What an excellent time. Not just the going but in the preparation. I was stretched so far outside my box in ministry, emotionally and relationally…. but having such a task helped me to stay so focused on the Lord and my task that my eyes were nowhere else.

This year I have been offered the same opportunity, and I thought my commitment would be for the most part a financial decision. Then as it turns out financially, I could likely make it work out even without donations. BUT….for some reason I felt no PEACE. UGH! I wish I did. I have sought the Lord and sought the Lord because commitment has to be made whether it be to accept or decline.

I have not exactly heard an audible voice, but yesterday at the radio this thought came to mind. Maybe I already know deep down in my spirit but since it is not what I want to hear I keep going back for other answers. Like the lawyer I talked about on the broadcast who asked Jesus a question and then went further to justify himself. Jesus turned His teaching on the lawyer, and I thought He was doing the same to me there. Was that His voice? Still, I kept seeking the Lord.

Then I was talking with a friend and co-worker, and out of the blue he brought up TZ and asked if I was going back. I told him of the questions I had and that I didn’t want to be out of the will of God. He stopped and thought for a minute and then said this, There is a difference between going because you want to go and going because you are needed there. Whoa! That hit me in the gut. Hard to think that you are not needed, everybody wants to be. I think at least for this time and this trip, I am not. So the emotions have flowed – sad and mad, and for some strange reason more loneliness. God tried to use the still small voice, but it took a sock in the gut for me.

Probably I should count it all joy even if I don’t feel joyful. Sometimes I wonder why God gave me such a huge desire to go places and do specific types of things when there seem so few doors that He will allow or doors with a need for me. What is the point? Oh, I know there is one and He will show me in time. Help me Lord in the waiting!

I still haven’t written the decline, but I know now I will.

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. ~ Proverbs 3:5-6

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Lead Me In The Way Everlasting

Psalm 139:24 – And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

“What feels like an offense is, in reality, a door to our destiny. Consider Joseph, he suffered attempted murder, betrayal and slavery; he was unjustly accused and unfairly imprisoned. Yet Joseph took the injustice he experienced from men and transferred those offenses to the Lord, His almighty Redeemer. You see, how we handle offense reveals where we are yet controlled by our flesh. If you want to reach your destiny, you must become Christlike in your crisis. In a word, you must become unoffendable.” –In Christ’s Image Training

Pastor Francis Frangipane posted this today on his ministry Facebook page. It is a quote from one of his teachings in his training school. It impacted my life the first time I heard it and since. Every time he posts this, I repost and I will likely continue to do so. I do it because it is a reminder to me of my training, that my training continues and my need to keep pressing into the Lord to become Christlike and to become unoffendable.

Offense is one of my hardest present struggles. In and of myself I can’t let things go but I have learned that I must quickly give things to the Lord. We live in a society that “honors” offense and tries to create victims from those offenses at every turn. But holding on to an offense is like being underwater too long and unable to breathe. It creates that kind of desperation and draws you that close to death. Letting it go is like finally rising to the top and getting that desperate breath that calms. Oh yes, it is that freeing!!!

Even with knowing that, it is still not natural or always easy and almost never my first reaction. Oh, Lord! I pray for the day that it is. My flesh wants to hang on to so much. But, as many things are, I have learned that letting go of offense is a choice. It is a decision that you have to make and then lay it on the altar, walk away and let Jesus handle it. And then sometimes I have to make the choice not to go back and pick it up again. Offense is a huge stumbling block and distraction and the enemy loves it when we are so wrapped up in an offense that we are doing nothing fruitful for the Kingdom of God. I am still learning.

My prayer – HELP me, Father, today not to hold onto any offense. Show me where it is hiding in my heart and help me make the choice to cast it away once and for all so I can walk in unity and love and focus and bearing lasting fruit on the way everlasting…in Jesus Name! Amen!!!

Proverbs 19:11 – The discretion of a man deferreth his anger; and it is his glory to pass over a transgression.

Proverbs 17:9 – He that covereth a transgression seeketh love; but he that repeateth a matter separateth very friends.

2 Corinthians 6:3 – Giving no offence in any thing, that the ministry be not blamed:

2 Corinthians 10:5 – Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;

Romans 14:13 – Let us not therefore judge one another any more: but judge this rather, that no man put a stumblingblock or an occasion to fall in his brother’s way.

Psalm 139:24 – And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
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Lead Me in the Way Everlasting

And see if there be any wicked way in me and lead me in the way everlasting. – Psalm 139:24

“What feels like an offense is, in reality, a door to our destiny. Consider Joseph, he suffered attempted murder, betrayal and slavery; he was unjustly accused and unfairly imprisoned. Yet Joseph took the injustice he experienced from men and transferred those offenses to the Lord, His almighty Redeemer. You see, how we handle offense reveals where we are yet controlled by our flesh. If you want to reach your destiny, you must become Christlike in your crisis. In a word, you must become unoffendable.” – In Christ’s Image Training

Pastor Francis Frangipane posted this today on his ministry Facebook page. It is a quote from one of his teachings in his training school. It impacted my life the first time I heard it and since. Every time he posts this, I repost, and I will likely continue to do so. I do it because it is a reminder to me of my training, that my training continues, and my need to keep pressing into the Lord dot become Christlike and to become offendable.

Offense is one of my hardest present struggles. In and of myself I can’t let things go but I have learned that I must quickly give things to the Lord.

We live in a society that “honors” offense and tries to create victims from those offenses at every turn. But holding on to offense is like being underwater too long and unable to breathe. It creates that kind of desperation and draws you that close to death. Letting it go is like finally rising to the top and getting that desperate breath that calms. Oh, yes, it is freeing!

Even knowing that, it is still not natural or always easy and rarely my first reaction. Oh, Lord! I pray for the day that it is. My flesh wants to hold on to so much. But, as many things are, I have learned that letting go of offense is a choice. It is a decision that you have to make and then lay it on the altar, walk away, and let Jesus handle it. And then sometimes I have to choose not to go back and pick it up again. Offense is a huge stumbling block and distraction, and the enemy loves it when we are so wrapped up in an offense that we are doing nothing fruitful for the Kingdom of God. I am still learning!

My Prayer – HELP me, Father, today not to hold onto any offense. Show me where it is hiding in my heart and help me choose to cast it away once and for all so I can walk in unity and love and focus and bear lasting fruit on the way everlasting. In Jesus Name! Amen!!!

The discretion of a man deferreth his anger; and it is his glory to pass over a transgression. – Proverbs 19:11

He that covereth a transgression Seeketh love; but he that repeater has a matter separateth very friends. – Proverbs 17:9

Giving no offense in any thing, that the ministry be not blamed. – 2 Corinthians 6:3

Let us not therefore judge one another any more; but judge this rather, that no man put a stumbling block or an occasion to fall in his brother’s way. – Romans 14:1

And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. –
Psalm 139:24

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Texts from My Father

I have friends that send me scripture verses via text or fb messenger each day. Different friends from different walks of life and different places. Today’s verses were just so encouraging, so perfectly spaced and flowed together so well so I wanted to share them as well as the sequence. Nothing like texts from friends but from my Father through His Word. I am blessed.

As I woke up. My praise!

It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.23 They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.24 The Lord is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him ~ Lamentations 3:22-24

As I drank my coffee. My charge!

Rejoice in the Lord always: and again I say, Rejoice. 5 Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand. 6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. 7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. 8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. ~ Philippians 4:4-8

Second cup of coffee. My meditation!

But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us, 5 Even when we were dead in sins, hath quickened us together with Christ, (by grace ye are saved;) 6 And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus: 7 That in the ages to come he might shew the exceeding riches of his grace in his kindness toward us through Christ Jesus. ~ Ephesians 2:4-7

As I started my work day. My prayer!

Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord, my strength, and my redeemer. ~ Psalm 19:14
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Texts from my Father

I have friends that send me scripture verses via text or FB Messenger each day. Different friends from different walks of life and different places. Today’s verses were just so encouraging, so perfectly spaced and flowed together so well. I wanted to share them as well as the sequence. Nothing like texts from friends but from my Father through His Word. I am blessed.

As I woke up. My praise!
It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. 23 They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. 24 The Lord is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him ~ Lamentations 3:22-24

As I drank my coffee. My charge!
Rejoice in the Lord always: and again I say, Rejoice. 5 Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand. 6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. 7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. 8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. ~ Philippians 4:4-8

Second cup of coffee. My meditation!
But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us, 5 Even when we were dead in sins, hath quickened us together with Christ, (by grace ye are saved;) 6 And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus: 7 That in the ages to come he might shew the exceeding riches of his grace in his kindness toward us through Christ Jesus. ~ Ephesians 2:4-7

As I started my work day. My prayer!
Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord, my strength, and my redeemer. ~ Psalm 19:14
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My Tongue Shall Speak of Thy Word

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Psalm 119:169-176 – TAU

169 Let my cry come near before thee, O Lord: give me understanding according to thy word. 170 Let my supplication come before thee: deliver me according to thy word. 171 My lips shall utter praise, when thou hast taught me thy statutes. 172 My tongue shall speak of thy word: for all thy commandments are righteousness. 173 Let thine hand help me; for I have chosen thy precepts. 174 I have longed for thy salvation, O Lord; and thy law is my delight. 175 Let my soul live, and it shall praise thee; and let thy judgments help me. 176 I have gone astray like a lost sheep; seek thy servant; for I do not forget thy commandments.

When I truly look at God’s statutes, the commandments, and measure myself; when I meditate on this Word…I can’t help but be changed and realize how bad it is. How bad I am, how much I need Him, and how much I need to call upon Him. It wasn’t until I got into the Word regularly and God started opening my eyes that I understood deep down at a heart level just how sinful and flawed I was. And that understanding helps me to also see just a little of what David is saying in these verses today.

When I read this passage, I hear a man (the psalmist) calling upon God; but also a man singing praises. This passage is a prayer to the Lord and the focus of the psalmist’s prayer is on God’s wonderful ability to meet his needs as he trusted Him. I love all of Psalm 119 but when I read this passage it became personal!!! Because the needs of the psalmist are the same things I need. They are the same things you need.

What did Psalmist need? He said:

I need Your Word. We never outgrow our need for God’s Word, no matter how long we walk with Him. There will always be something new. The psalmist asked for understanding and deliverance, for he knew that the truth would set him free (John 8:32)

I need Your Hand. The idols of his world have hands that do not move or feel, but God’s hand is active on behalf of His people. His hand is righteous.

I need Your salvation. Our ultimate salvation was found on the cross when Jesus died and then was put in that tomb and then raised on that third day. But I believe our need for His salvation means even more than that. Here salvation also meant deliverance from his enemies who were threatening him, but salvation can mean freedom from worry, healing from sickness, provision of funds to pay a bill or deliverance from satanic oppression.

I need Your help. The writer prayed HELP ME earlier in verse 86 and isn’t that our cry. God’s hand can help us but so can His judgments. Judgments is another word for the Word of God, but it can also refer to the working of God’s providence in this world. The two go together because God always obeys His own Word when He works in this world. God helps us as He arranges the affairs of His world and our lives. He will accomplish His will.

My Pastor (Jeff Johnson) said that the word “Tau” means “covenant” (an agreement between two people; to promise or pledge) and right in the middle of this prayer the Psalmist agrees to something. The Psalmist says, “teach me thy Word” and I will do two things: I will praise thee (my lips shall utter praise when thou has taught me thy statutes vs.171) and I will speak Your Word (my tongue shall speak of thy word vs. 172). Now that is a prayer God will answer. When you are in the Word you can’t help but let out that Word through your mouth. Study of the Word, preaching the Word, praise, and worship all belong together.

For years, I was good at doing. Doing specifically for God. I loved Him and I was grateful for His grace and I wanted to do something. I grew up learning the Bible…but the Bible, this Word hadn’t permeated my heart. I didn’t get it. And so, the doing took place of praise flowing out of my heart and onto my lips. There was no praise because there was not understanding, or admittance, of God’s statutes. It is not about our doing but we know we are not to just sit around doing nothing. God has a work He expects us to do on this earth. It says in Revelation 22:12 says,

When we meditate on the Word our hearts are changed and the overflow of our heart is love and the overflow of our love is praise and speaking His Word and then we DO…. God wants us to LOVE HIM and PRAISE HIM and then be obedient to what He tells us to DO but the doing comes as a “byproduct” of our love and praise from a heart that has meditated on His Word.

During the spiritual journey of the Psalmist that we read of in Psalm 119 we know that though he had many ups and downs, he always stayed himself on the Word of God. Now, how fitting is the last verse of 119? After 175 verses of proclaiming how great God’s Word is; how we treasure it; how we seek to follow with our whole heart, still the psalmist ended up saying and we also in our journey to be honest at times we must say… I have gone astray like a lost sheep; seek thy servant; for I do not forget thy commandments.

I need to know and declare, “I am Thy servant.” The psalmist admitted he had gone astray. He did not say that he had greatly sinned against the Lord or that he was rebelling. But even still, he had come to know through it all his own weakness and ignorance. I need to come to that place too. The servant had strayed BUT he knew he was still the servant of God and not the servant of sin, and he still remembered God’s Word and he has asked for help, so he won’t stray for long.

When the Word is opened to you because you have meditated on it and it becomes alive in your hearts too… you can’t help but realize that even though you too are prone to wander and stray and rebel…when you called upon Him for HELP He will come and in Him there is FORGIVENESS. ACCEPTANCE. LOVE. And that will bring you to your knees in worship. For WHO He is, and what He has done for us.

What is in your hearts today? Are praise and the Word pouring forth from your heart to your mouth? If not, why?

for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh. ~ Luke 6:45