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When I was a young girl during those times when I just needed to cry and to cry out to the Lord, I would run out and sit in the midst of the cotton field behind our house. From there in the distance I could see the mountain ranges and I would look out toward them and repeat Psalm 121 over and over. It was a passage that God put into my heart right after my dad died and I always felt like it was special and just for me. I would insert my name into it and meditate on it. Like a rainbow was God’s promise to Noah, to this day every time I see a mountain I am reminded of this passage – His promise to me. God met me in that cotton field and gave me great comfort during those times of confusion, despair and loneliness…It still does.

I lift up my eyes to the hills- Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip –
He who watches over you will not slumber;
Indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
The LORD watches over you
The LORD is your shade at your right hand;
The sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
The LORD will keep you from all harm – He will watch over your life;
The LORD will watch over your coming and going
Both now and forevermore.

~ Psalm 121

Back in the early 90’s I was a part of a group that did the Henry Blackaby course on knowing and doing the will of God, titled Experiencing God. I remember it was an awesome teaching. For some reason, I pulled the book out the other day to take a look and found myself learning again some of the lessons of knowing and doing the will of God. I want to share some of what God has been re-emphasizing to me and what He is doing in my life. Knowing and doing the will of God is a life long encounter because the Lord desires a relationship with me, not some type of arrangement based on methods and formulas. There are some truths He gives to help that only fully work in the context of relationship. One of those truths is God is always at work around us. Jesus never asked the Father what His will was rather, He always looked for what the Father was doing and joined Him (John 5:19-20). So it is not God’s highest for me to seek His will for my life, but rather ask Him to reveal to me what He is doing so I can join Him. In what He reveals to me is the will of God for me. That is the way Jesus did it.

Paul said, “Find out what pleases the Lord” (Eph. 5:10). In terms of doing the will of God I can know some of what pleases Him. He is pleased with what He is doing not what I am doing. I can have and believe I did have a vision from Him (knowing the will of God), but that does not mean I am going about accomplishing it in the way that pleases Him. I have to continually look at what He is doing and seek to do that with Him. Jesus said, “We get life from every word that proceeds from the mouth of God” (Matt. 4:4). I noted that it says proceeds not proceeded; it is what He is saying not necessarily what He said. Well guess it really is His way or the highway, the highway being frustration, added expense, delay, misunderstanding. And maybe it really can be an actual highway at times as one may walk away from a vision or a ministry believing it was never His will or intent in the first place.

I have come to that place recently in my own life…with the vision God gave me for some areas of ministry and my life. I know the vision is from the heart of the Father, but almost everything I have done in the past two years has not worked. I have worked and worked and found myself in a place of such frustration with all the doing that was not working that I really started to question the vision and if I had ever even heard God in the first place. Probably anyone that has experienced such a thing knows that is not a good place to be. After a lot of searching I have finally settled in my heart that it is the way I have been attempting to do the will of God and I have settled in my heart that trying so hard to do things my way was not pleasing to Him.

God is working, but He is not doing what I thought He would or should be doing and on my timetable. Blackaby calls this the crisis of belief and says that “God’s invitation for you to work with Him always leads you to a crisis of belief that require both faith and action.” Well, I have been in full-blown crisis. I have been at this place before in my life and just like way back then…I wanted to just run away from it all. Having been a runner in my earlier years though, I know that cost is way, way too high. So I have had to take a hard look at myself and my works and make some decisions. Am I going to continue down the highway of frustration or shall I stop and ask the Lord for a fresh perspective, for a fresh proceeding Word? I know that in retrospect that looks like a no-brainer, but in the heat of the moment and what has been clearly a battle, it has been very difficult. I was afraid if I did the vision would die, but I found that the pain of continuing is greater than the pain of risking failure. I had to surrender. God being God….the moment I surrendered He began to show me some of what He was doing and that I needed to shift my strategy to that. Shifting my strategy meant also though a shift in me. Here in a place of surrender I found that I had spent alot of energy once again trying to blame my failure on so many other things and people around me, and even God… but really…it was me. It is a lesson I go over and over in my life. Will I ever learn? His way is not always the easier and it may require major change on my part but it is always the only way.

As Blackaby states, “You must make major adjustments in your life to join God in what He is doing.”

So I have to continually make adjustments in my life to join God in what He is doing by His design. I am learning that knowing and doing the will of God really is a life long encounter and one of the ways I grow in relationship with Him is by looking to what He is doing and adjusting myself to Him. Now…God is calling me to stop and ask Him for a fresh perspective, for a fresh proceeding word and if I ever needed such a word, it is right now.

I pray such silly prayers sometimes! “God, is that Your will for ME!” Never mind that the Word of God says it is His will for me.” Or how about this one…”Lord, it’s not fair! You are asking me to do things I can’t do.” I think God laughs!

I have been going through a season where it seems almost everything in me wants to see healing flow through my prayers and my hands. I see the sick and those in bondage and it is as though I enter into their pain and I have no other focus than to share the LIFE and the HOPE that God has given me. The Bible says that healing is only one of the signs that will follow believers. Being a believer…I just take these Words literally..but of course, there is someone who hates healing and works in all of our minds to make sure we NEVER walk in that. For most of my life I was taught this gift had passed and wasn’t for this generation. Healing and a desire to see people healed and delivered of physical and emotional and spiritual wounds is nevertheless ingrained in the depths of my soul…as though it had always been there. I have fought constant doubts and questions as to whether this was for me. How could I believe in and desire something that so many don’t. Am I just rebellious? My thoughts and emotions around this have been like floating balls in the water. I try to push it under and it goes down briefly but then quickly rises back to the surface. I questioned my heart. I questioned my motives. I questioned my character. Shouldn’t I focus on salvation instead of signs that lead to salvation? Oh, it went on and on.

Then, someone prayed for me and as he prayed for God’s will to come forth in my life, I fell into pieces. With each tear, it was as though all the questions, the sorrow, the doubt, all that I didn’t understand and could never explain fell out of me in a heap of pieces as well. When the tears stopped I actually did feel lighter and hopeful but I was still very unsure of what the Holy Spirit was doing within me beyond just having a need for a good cry. Since that prayer though I have felt God’s direction and most especially over the weekend as He directed me to a chapter in the Bible, Romans 4.

I have read and reread this passage in many versions. Here are portions of it from the Message Bible:

“The story we are given is a God-story not an Abraham-story.”
“Abraham entered into what God was doing for him and THAT was the turning point.”

“the one who trusts God to do the putting-everything-right without insisting on having a say in it is one fortunate man”

“When everything was hopeless, Abraham believed anyway, deciding to live not on the basis of what he saw he couldn’t do but on what God said he WOULD do.”

“He didn’t tiptoe around God’s promise asking cautiously skeptical questions. He plunged into the promise and came up strong, ready for God, sure that God would make good on what He had promised.”

The Word does not come back void and somewhere in these last days something has clicked. A lightbulb came on! Today I stop apologizing for and tiptoeing around my beliefs and my desires. I stop worrying about how to explain who I have become or what God has promised. I am plunging into what He has placed in my life because it isn’t about me and my ability, or lack of. It is all about God and souls. Healing IS His idea. His idea to lead the unbeliever to Him. I didn’t make it up or even put the desire into my own heart. It is His desire residing in my heart!!!

What God put in my heart will come to pass. Of course, I can’t do it and that’s how I know it is God! And isn’t it wondeful that I don’t have to do anything except in my inability, just believe anyway? (Read Romans 4) Just like God changed Sarah so that she could birth her baby, Isaac, God can do whatever is necessary in me, so that I can birth HIS dream, HIS promise; that which can not be done in the natural but MUST come from the Spirit. It is ALL ABOUT HIM!

This old, old poem written in 1577 by Sir Francis Drake is on my mind this morning…a dangerous prayer to pray…

Disturb us Lord,
When we are too pleased with ourselves,
When our dreams have come true
Because we dreamed too little,
When we arrived safely
Because we sailed too close to the shore.

Disturb us Lord,
When with the abundance of things we possess
We have lost our thirst for the waters of life;
Having fallen in love with life,
We have ceased to dream of eternity
And in our efforts to build a new earth,
We have allowed our vision of the new Heaven to dim.

Disturb us Lord,
To dare more boldly,
To venture on wilder seas,
Where storms will show Your mastery;
Where losing sight of land,
We shall find the stars.

We ask you to push back
The horizons of our hopes;
And to push back the future
In strength, courage, hope, and love.

This we ask in the name of our Captain,
Who is Jesus Christ.

Prayer of Francis Drake, 1577

by Rodney Howard-Browne

Just because you can’t do it – doesn’t mean I can’t do it.
Just because you can’t see it – doesn’t mean I can’t see it.
Just because you won’t do it – doesn’t mean I won’t do it

Where you see hopelessness – I see hope.
Where you see lack – I see supernatural provision.
Where you see barriers – I see bridges.
Where you see weakness – I see God’s strength.
Where you see darkness – I see a light shining.
Where you see hindrances – I see God’s favor.
Where you see no way – I see a path.
Where you see desert – I see a river of life.
Where you see fear – I see faith in God.
Where you see sickness – I see healing power.
Where you see man’s limitations – I see God’s unlimited resources.
Where you see the curse – I see God’s abundant blessing.
Where you see sin – I see grace and mercy.
Where you see pain – I see restoration.
Where you see confusion – I see wisdom.
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A few hours at the food pantry can put some things about mothers into perspective. Mothers are the same no matter how rich or poor. They love their children and worry about them. Almost all mothers put their child’s needs above their own….universally.

Every week I seem to talk with more and more people experiencing hunger and along with that depression, anxiety and true fear. I talk with many mothers that only want prayer for a child; their child on drugs or in prison. Mothers that want salvation for the kids; healing for the kids. Mothers that want jobs for their sons and daughters. Mothers concerned about the desperation of their children more so even than their own desperation.

I think especially of one woman I prayed for one Tuesday that truly just fell apart because she was physically hungry. She hadn’t had any food for several days and didn’t know where food was coming from for herself. Everything she had, and that wasn’t much, was given to the three grandchildren she suddenly found herself raising…then a friend brought her to the food pantry. She was so relieved to get food that she just fell into my arms shaking and sobbing while I prayed for her. All I could do was pray and hug her. I had no words of my own…but then she found words to tell me her story.

What a mission field God has placed me in- and I didn’t have to go on a mission trip to find it. It is right in my own town- next street over! I am just in awe of how God has fulfilled something deep within my heart through my connection with the people that come to receive and how much they actually end up feeding me. It is like a crazy love affair that makes no sense in the natural but on a deeper level is a perfect plan. I am feeling something there that I have never felt before…maybe the Father’s heart for the poor? It is precious to me.

I continue to pray for this mother and grandmother. What does it feel like as a mom to have nothing to give your own for their hunger? That for Mothers Day all you want is food for them or something like diapers? What does it feel like to only want peace of mind for those you love most? I get it, because once upon a time I was there. I pray that I am never so far removed that I don’t remember what she is feeling. Even still, there is only so much I can do…She was given food to meet the immediate hunger and I don’t have riches, but even as in the scripture, what I do have I know I have given her. I gave her my prayers-because there is One that knows her heart and He speaks through the prayers and the food; One that has felt that kind of hunger. I shared with her my Hope-because there is One that does deliver and does provide for our every need; One that offers eternal life. I gave her my love-because there is One that loves her as He loved even me.

May sound sad to you but God is working in people’s lives through their hunger. His most wonderful gift seems to begin with their hunger and their desperation. I have seen it play out before my eyes. It is a gift in so many ways- just as it was and is to me. I am so blessed to have met this woman and mom one Tuesday….Happy Mothers Day!

I was reading in Psalm 88 and when I read verse 13 in the Amplified it says “in the morning shall my prayer come to meet you” – just got this picture of my prayers busting through right into His glory and presence. Looking forward to morning prayer. I had been praying for encouragement and I feel this was God given encouragement alright… I so much needed that!
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Have you prayed for your pastors today? Be part of a mighty prayer support system for our pastors. Each and every day may they know that we are in prayer for them.

“Remember those who led you, who spoke the word of God to you” (Heb. 13:7, NASB).

SEVEN DAYS WITH OUR PASTORS: A Prayer Guide
– author unknown

SUNDAY – I PRAY FOR THEM AS PREACHERS-TEACHERS
“Pray also for me, that whenever, I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel.” (Eph. 6:19, NIV).
1. Pray that Christ may be lifted up through them.
2. Pray that they may experience the anointing of the Spirit as they preach/teach.
3. Pray that needs may be met, hearts blessed, and lives changed, through the preaching/teaching of the Word.

MONDAY – I PRAY FOR THEM AS SERVANT LEADERS—ADMINISTRATORS
“Give your servant an understanding heart to judge Your people to discern between good and evil. For who is able to judge this great people of Yours” (1 Kings 3:9, NASB)
1. Pray that they may lead with the direction and sensitivity that only the Holy Spirit can offer.
2. Pray that they may offer guidance that brings unity and shared vision.

TUESDAY – I PRAY FOR EACH OF THEM AS A PERSON
“Because you have made the Lord, who is my refuge, Even the Most High, your dwelling place, No evil shall befall you, Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling; For He shall give His angels charge over you, To keep you in all your ways” (Ps. 9:9-11, NKJV).
1. Pray for their Sabbath and their rest in the Lord.
2. Pray for them as part of a family…a husband or wife, a father or mother, a son or daughter. Pray that those cherished times in their home shall be a blessing to them and to their loved ones.
3. Pray that things of this earth will not overtake their spirit with preoccupation and misplaced priorities.

WEDNESDAY – I PRAY FOR THEM AS PASTORS
“I will give you shepherds after My own heart, who will feed you on knowledge and understanding”(Jer. 3:15,NASB).
1. Pray that the Holy Spirit may be the Comforter of souls through His servants as they counsel the troubled,visit the sick in homes and hospitals, and exhibit the love of Christ in daily acts of ministry.
2. Pray that, as pastors, they may emulate the strength and compassion of the Good Shepherd.

THURSDAY – I PRAY FOR THEM AS PROPHETS
“I solemnly charge you in the presence of God and of Christ Jesus, who is to judge the living and the dead, and by His appearing and His kingdom: preach the word; be ready in season and out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort, with great patience and instruction” (2 Tim. 4:1-2, NASB).
1. Pray that as they prepare sermons or teachings or give a word during praise and worship, only the Word of the Lord may be revealed.
2. Pray that the emerging vision God has for His people may be revealed and clearly interpreted
through His servants.

FRIDAY – I PRAY FOR THEM AS EVANGELISTS
“How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news” (Rom. 10:15, NASB).
1. Pray for them as they win souls to Christ and as they teach others to win souls to Christ.
2. Pray that doors of opportunity for witness may be continually opening to them.

SATURDAY – I PRAY FOR THEM AS DISCIPLES OF JESUS
“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of His might. Put on the full armor of God, so that you will be able to stand firm against the schemes of the devil. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places” (Eph. 6:10-12, NASB).
1. Pray that they may continue to discover new depths of understanding as students of the Word.
2. Pray that they may ever find a consistent balance between the Word and the deed as they follow Jesus.
3. Pray that a wall of protection surround them and that they may be kept safe from the devices of Satan.

via City Church USA website

LOVE creates -> Desire gives us a -> “Want To Attitude”

FAITH creates -> Confidence gives us an -> “I Can Attitude”

HOPE creates -> Expectancy gives us an -> “I See Attitude”

(–Any one of these laws is very powerful in and of itself, but if you combine all three together, they are EXTREMELY powerful!!!)

I will never forget the first time I heard about a Maundy Thursday service. I was in my late 20s and although I had grown up in church and even in the denomination observing this special time, it was pretty much all new to me. I wondered about the meaning of this word “Maundy” which I couldn’t find in my Webster’s dictionary. Was I the only one that had never heard of this?

Maundy Thursday is the Thursday of Passion Week, one day before Good Friday (the Thursday before Easter). Maundy Thursday is the name given to the day on which Jesus celebrated the Passover with His disciples, known to us as the Last Supper. Two important events are the focus of Maundy Thursday.

First, Jesus celebrated the Last Supper with His disciples and thereby instituted the Lord’s Supper, also called Communion (Luke 22:19-20). Some Christian churches observe a special Communion service on Maundy Thursday in memory of Jesus’ Last Supper with His disciples. Second, Jesus washed the disciples’ feet as an act of humility and service, thereby setting an example that we should love and serve one another in humility (John 13:3-17). Some Christian churches observe a foot-washing ceremony on Maundy Thursday to commemorate Jesus’ washing the feet of the disciples.

The word “Maundy” is derived from the Latin word for “command.” The “Maundy” in Maundy Thursday refers to the command Jesus gave to the disciples at the Last Supper, that they should love and serve one another. John 13:34-35 “A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another. By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.”

From what I have read, I don’t think the Bible commands or forbids the observation of this particular day but I believe the events are to be remembered. It is a good thing to remember the Last Supper and Jesus’ sacrifice on our behalf. It is a good thing to remember His beautiful example of humility. Not in such a way that is only a ritual or legal observance though, as a personal and corporate remembrance. Some may do that today and some may do that on other days. As in footwashing…some may observe it literally and some may observe and remember what it represents in other ways. Maybe different days, maybe different ways. We should probably remember every day.

Remember! There is that word again. (earlier this year…first step to revival– REMEMBER…hmmmm). I want to remember and I believe God wants me to remember His Son and these things. I believe this even more so because of Jesus’ own words immediately following some of the events and actions of that Thursday in His life. In John 13:17 Jesus said….”If you know these things, blessed are you if you do them.” Now I know.

Have a blessed Maundy Thursday!